Why, I ask, Why?

I feel blue and tired tonight. There is no explainable reason why. I didn't have a bad day, I got enough sleep last night, I don't have to go for jury duty tomorrow (I was supposed to but the case was settled, thank God).

So wtf is wrong with me? I could have gone to bed when I got home at 6:00 tonight.

I blame winter, although, the sun did come out today, so even though it was cold, it was sunny.

In other news, I wish my stepson would cut his hair. Damn the 70's hair that has come back in and damn the skinny jeans. How does he get his foot through the hole?

Okay, I'm off to take a hot bath and go to bed early. If this is one of those nights where I get a burst of energy just when bedtime rolls around and then I can't sleep, I am going to be extremely irritated.

Hmmph.

Motivational Quote of the Day

I get these in my e-mail every day and I just love the one from today:

"Your imagination is your preview of life's coming attractions." -Albert Einstein

Why I don't bake anymore

Because I can eat 7 pieces of chocolate cake in one 24 hour period.

Obsession

Sunday I went to Elder Beerman to try and find a replacement set of sheets. We have a set of Karen Neuberger sheets that are so unbelievably soft and comfortable and also have a huge hole in them and I want another of the exact same set. Well, they didn't have the sheets I was looking for, but I did find these:

Now there is no logical reason that I want or need these bowls. I am already maxed out on cupboard space so I would have no where to put them and they would probably end up sitting on my counter and making my kitchen look even more cluttered than usual.

But they are Fiesta Ware and I *heart* Fiesta Ware. Sigh. Plus they come in all sorts of bright and cheery colors.

And I want them. Along with about 600 other pieces of Fiesta Ware in 12 different colors.

What is wrong with me?

Monday Morning Smile

Let’s lighten things up around here.

The following was published in my local police blotter. Yes folks, I live in a high crime area.

A [] husband supposedly still in bed with his sleeping wife called 911 Friday morning to report a burglar.
The burglar turned out to be his wife, who was baking cookies.
A [] Police sergeant said the 26-year-old man called 911 about 7 a.m. to report that he heard noises in the downstairs area of the couple’s home [].
Troopers[] responded to the call, which was dispatched as a burglary of an occupied resident, to find a woman in the kitchen area.
The troopers contacted the 25-year-old woman who told them her name and that she lived in the home.
The troopers contacted the husband and asked him to check on his “sleeping wife.”
When he checked, he discovered it was not his wife sharing the marital bed but a pile of clothing, the police sergeant said

Fumbling towards....... something

First of all, I want to thank everyone who extended well wishes and sympathy regarding the loss of my grandma. It was much appreciated.

Last week was a rough week. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday were consumed with funeral related activities culminating with the funeral itself. It was draining and it was harder than I expected. Then Wednesday evening I came down with either food poisioning or the stomach flu. I'm leaning toward the stomach flu. So, like I said, it was a rough week.

I still can't believe she is gone.

But, life goes on as it must. And beginning tomorrow, it's back to our regularily scheduled programming.

I think it's gonna rain today

My grandma passed away this morning. And I'm sad.

This was my dad's mom and my last grandparent to go. So that makes it a little extra sad. I suppose in a way this makes my mom and dad orphans.

However, today I have been trying to focus on the fact that she lived an amazing life. She was 91 and healthy up until very recently. Her death was not long and drawn out and I don't think she suffered. She had 7 kids, all of who outlived her and oodles of grandchildren and great grandchildren. My grandpa passed away about 12 years ago, so she doesn't have to be without him anymore.

It really is the way life should go, but I can't help feeling so sad. It's the end of something.

I will miss you grandma. You were so loved.

Not so excited about January so far

This month hasn't been the greatest so far. With our vacation and the holidays in December, I felt like I worked part-time (probably because I basically did work part-time).

So when January started, I told myself it was back to the grind time. I was meal-planning a week at a time, getting back into the groove at work, keeping the house clean. I was refreshed from having so much time off last month.

But of course, it only took me about 1 week to remember why I hate my job. And then I got called for Jury Duty. And then my grandma got really really sick and I had to drive 3 hours one way in a blizzard so I could see her before she passed. And then she didn't pass (but it has been touch and go and I am convinced that doctors know nothing) and I got stuck on two (yes two) jury trials that I have to go back for at the end of the month.

Then yesterday was Dave's birthday, but my boss (who is never in town) was in town and I had a bunch of meetings so I didn't get home until later than I wanted to. And we were supposed to go out for a very nice dinner tonight and my mom called me this morning to tell me that my grandma is indeed dying and they don't expect her to make it through the weekend. So dinner is cancelled and I feel terrible.

And then I started thinking of everything that is on my plate at work this coming week and I figure I am going to be out at least 1 or 2 days for the funeral and there is this huge meeting where a bunch of people are flying in and what if I have to miss it. I know you are probably thinking, who cares about work when there are family issues to be tended to? And that is mostly how I feel, but honestly I have been so unengaged at work that I was already feeling guilty about it so while I could care less about missing the meeting, I feel guilty about not caring. Does that even make sense?

I really am over January. Really. And it is only the 16th.