Not so excited about January so far

This month hasn't been the greatest so far. With our vacation and the holidays in December, I felt like I worked part-time (probably because I basically did work part-time).

So when January started, I told myself it was back to the grind time. I was meal-planning a week at a time, getting back into the groove at work, keeping the house clean. I was refreshed from having so much time off last month.

But of course, it only took me about 1 week to remember why I hate my job. And then I got called for Jury Duty. And then my grandma got really really sick and I had to drive 3 hours one way in a blizzard so I could see her before she passed. And then she didn't pass (but it has been touch and go and I am convinced that doctors know nothing) and I got stuck on two (yes two) jury trials that I have to go back for at the end of the month.

Then yesterday was Dave's birthday, but my boss (who is never in town) was in town and I had a bunch of meetings so I didn't get home until later than I wanted to. And we were supposed to go out for a very nice dinner tonight and my mom called me this morning to tell me that my grandma is indeed dying and they don't expect her to make it through the weekend. So dinner is cancelled and I feel terrible.

And then I started thinking of everything that is on my plate at work this coming week and I figure I am going to be out at least 1 or 2 days for the funeral and there is this huge meeting where a bunch of people are flying in and what if I have to miss it. I know you are probably thinking, who cares about work when there are family issues to be tended to? And that is mostly how I feel, but honestly I have been so unengaged at work that I was already feeling guilty about it so while I could care less about missing the meeting, I feel guilty about not caring. Does that even make sense?

I really am over January. Really. And it is only the 16th.

I Have a Confession to Make

I make up songs about my dog and sing them to him. It's true and I feel better now that I have confessed to it and you all know that I am insane.

Anyone Still There?

Okay, okay, so I disappeared for a couple months. Sucked into a cesspool of writer's block, apathy, self-loathing and just plain old fashioned laziness.

But alas, school started today. Poop. (Jen that's for you. I'm going to work fart in somehow too, my mom made us call them fluffies when I was growing up, I swear)

So here is my summer in a nutshell and I swear I am getting back on track with this thing. I'm still planning on moving it as soon as I can think of a good new name.

Okay, so we went to Traverse City. I got really drunk one day (on accident) and had to go back to our hotel room and pass out. There are photos (not of me drunk, sorry) but I haven't gotten them off the camera. Perhaps someday I'll share them, but really, probably not.

The kids are fine. Their mother actually took them for a total of 3 solid weeks (not consecutively) this summer. Those breaks were nice and made me question if getting pregnant is really a good idea for me. We'll talk more about that later.

So they (the kids) had a good summer even though I failed to deliver on my promise of a trip to Chicago and the American Girl store. I'm trying to get that lined up for October time frame. We'll see, it is really expensive.

My work still sucks and if possible has begun to suck even more. We have had more layoffs and a total new management overhaul which has left the office in a total tizzy (how the frick do you spell tizzie?). I'm sick of people losing their jobs and worrying about my own job. The atmosphere is crappy and life sucking and makes me question my goals and values in life on a daily basis.

New in our life is my quest to cut refined white sugar out of my diet (why did I buy the econo size of chocolate covered raisins? They are really good and a huge temptation). I'm getting fat, my pants are getting tight and I can't afford new pants. So losing weight is the only option. I'll let you know how that works out. Most people lose weight in the summer, but for some reason I seem to gain in the summer and lose in the fall and winter.

Okay, last thing for tonight. Books from my summer reading list.

#1 best book I read this summer is a must for all my old college buddies and anyone else who was raised in a Bible thumping religious right household. The Unlike Disciple - A Sinners Semester at America's Holiest University. Seriously, read it. It was an easy and quick read. If you do not fall into either of the categories I mentioned above, you may not "get" it though. And, hey, old college buddies, AU, not so bad.

I read some other books this summer, but I can't remember any of the right now. Probably because I am rushing or because I haven't had any refined white sugar today. But I'm back, but Jro, you can still post 80's music lyrics in my comments. I also like Prince, the J Giles Band and Tears for Fears.